I am the paint brush you are the canvas.

i want orange beards
knots in my hair
sweet fruitfull tears
Colorfull patterns
music in my ears
then i lean out in the world,
and grasp

resting in this…


God is good, all the time…and all the time, God is good.

grieving and hope

Meditating on what it means to grieve and resting in Jesus.

Ephesians 4:30–32. Paul says, “Do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption.” And then he names my sins: “Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.”

poison.

“dance with mystery… change is calling out, i can feel it’s breath. my fears are falling down, right to their death. may they rest.”

neon.

Fading neon lights
yellow feelings flashing under the midnight street signs
i have cold sweats in mid november
i am 81 and there are patterns on my head like lady bugs dancing on the chandelier
with spiders trickling down the inwards of my spine
give me good morning kisses
and burnt orange goodbyes
untill the dandelion wine has gone sour
and no one will be around to answer the door

a once courageous heart.

he believes you will understand:

what is imagined is a delicate image within itself,

and you will discover, that what is hidden is really to be found.....

i have the best friends a girl could ask for.

so i have had a crappy few days ok I have had a crappy week and if anyone knows me that is hard to admit (another blog will come about that) so i woke up this morning and one of my favorite people in the world katie collins sent me this email and made me feel so loved and wanted in this world. i seriously have the best friends in the world and i praise God for them every day, i don't know what i would do if they weren't in my life. i might just move to chicago....

Top 10 reasons you should move to Chicago stat:

1.) I live here. ...no brainer right?!
2.) Missio Dei is the real deal. Full of real people with real vulnerability and real passion for God. All my friends would love you!
3.) We could be roommates or flatmates or housemates or matey mate pirate mates!
4.) We can laugh into the wee hours of the night until snot drips out our noses and tears pour out of our eyes.
5.) The Midwest is Best. No joke. Midwesterners are no nonsense with theirs heads on there shoulders. Rugged types with strong sense of community and respect.
6.) Lake Michigan! Yeah boi! Where else can you join the Lakeview Polar Bear Club or ride your bike car free along 18 miles of the Chicago Lake front? Not to mention the amazing lake front parks that stretch from Roger's Park all the way down to the Museum Campuses. And water sports! Water with out the salt and sharks... genius.
7.) The Museums. Yeah DC has its cool museums and all but they don't have Sue the T-rex. And where else can you do a handstand in a Tornado and not get hurt? Or see where Fairy's sleep in style?
8.) Deep. Dish. Pizza. Us Midwesterners got to eat hearty in winter. Fat keeps the heat in. Also name any type of food or treat or edible delicious thing you could ever want it's here in the city. Also hundreds of independently owned coffeeshops to spend your day reading and people watching. Starbucks no more my friend.
9.) The Christmas season in this city is so homey and wonderful and magical and I love it! LOVE IT! also in the summer people come pouring out of the wood work and pop out of nowhere to play out side in the parks. We pride ourselves on the parks here. They're pretty rad.
10.) Selfishly I just want to be in the same zip code as you Brooke Reilly. You are amazing. You are well loved. And I have loaned you to my friends in DC long enough. Ha! Tell them you are overdue and come back to me! Or prerhaps I'll have to start charging them late fees.... mmm...might have to implement that... :)